warning: if you are a fan of House, DO NOT read this!!!
i'm serious.
the whole thing is one big spoiler.
and i mean big.
like knowing the end of season 4 times like 20.
if you don't know the end of season 4, then you're not a hardcore fan, so you can read this.
*SPOILER*
if you're a grief counselor, i'm probably gonna need you about this time next week.
I DON'T WANT CAMERON TO DIE!!!!!!! and i can list about a dozen reasons why i'm sure it's going to be her. and the episode where "some one" is going to die is next week. NEXT WEEK! only about 160 hours from now! (and, no joke, if that episode for some reason doesn't record, i'm seriously going to go postal on direcTV's collective ass!!) i'm so... i'm not ready to handle this. i seriously feel like i'm losing a personal friend. i may have to go back to my therapist in order to get over this. only i'm not joking or being over-dramatic. i've literally been through 4 of the 5 stages of grief. the only one i haven't gotten to yet is acceptance. i'm currently wobbling between denial: "no. it was leaked incorrectly and it's not really gonna happen. none of the main characters are going to die!!!", and bargaining: "please, PLEASE, let it be ANY ONE besides Cameron!! i could almost take even Cuddy or 13, almost. just please, NOT CAMERON!!"
i had almost gotten over it and was simply excited about having a new episode for the first time in 2 weeks, but then the preview came on for next week's episode. i started sobbing. "no. no! please, NO!!" my chest was heaving and tears stung my eyes. i think i'm still in denial enough that i didn't completely fall apart, but i feel absolutely sick to my stomach. and that happens every time i think about Cameron dieing.
ok. reasons i think it's Cameron:
1. she's like never on the show anyway, so it would make sense, out of all the actors, that Jennifer would be the one to leave
2. katie jacobson [writer/creator] said the cast would look "pretty much the same next season" and, as i said before, Cameron is never there.
3. they've already said that chase [jesse spencer] would be on practically every episode next season. dealing with losing his girlfriend by hanging around House & his team too much, maybe?
4. Jennifer and Jesse were engaged, but called off the wedding a couple years ago. they constantly told the press they were fine with still working with each other, but maybe that was just a cover up...?
5. Cameron has basically run her course in terms of the show. she's not progressing anything any more. from a writing standpoint, it's basically time for her to leave. (why couldn't she just frikken CHANGE HOSPITALS?!?)
6. it doesn't make sense that any of the other characters leave - they're all still buried in plot lines (except for Chase, which, if his girlfriend dies - dut duh duh DAH - new storyline).
7. it doesn't make sense that any of the other actors leave. [see 1, 5, & 6]
8. on the teaser for next week, they showed foreman and 13 holding hands (standing up) so it's not either of them.
9. they showed house, wilson, cuddy, and Cameron individually gasping in surprise. it's a definite probability that they would show whoever dies alive in order to throw off the audience. and considering that none of the other three could POSSIBLY leave without the show basically ending... well... you get the picture.
10. they DIDN'T show chase. possibly because he'll spend next episode crying the whole time? that would give it away.
11. they also didn't show kutner or taub. those are the two people who have the least connection with Cameron, and would therefore have the mildest reactions.
reasons it's no one else:
1. it can't be taub - the writers have worked too hard backing him into corners that would force him off the show to actually kick him off. (or at least to kill him off. that would be too easy.)
2. katy jacobs said it wasn't any one obvious, so it can't be House or 13, the two characters who have the most to die for.
3. it can't be cuddy - they've built up this relationship between her and house for about 2 years now. besides, she's too integral to the show. i mean if there's a new dean of medicine, House is gone.
4. it can't be wilson - Hugh once said that the story is basically able to be told because of Wilson. and he's right. but that's another unimaginably long post.
5. it can't be kutner - he always comes up with the things House doesn't.
6. it can't be foreman - a) the writers worked too hard to keep him in the fellowship to kick him off the show. b) 13's story is tragic enough, there's no way she would also lose the man who's in love with her.
7. it can't be chase - they already said Jesse would be back every episode next season.
8. it can't be house - well DUH.
so yeah. if not Cameron, then who?
holy crap i'm depressed now.
oh, and please don't tell me to "relax, it's only a TV show". i know that. and i don't care.
thank you and sleep well. God knows i won't.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
currently [not] reading: houseisright.com
mood: OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!
OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm like so freaking out right now!!!
okay.
breathe.
whoo.
so i have the houseisright.com RSS feed on my homepage, and today i saw something on there that i wish i hadn't seen. and now i'm absolutely gonna CRY!! only i'm not joking. i'm like seriously tearing up. go read if you want, but be warned, it's a serious spoiler. i don't read spoilers, but the title was a spoiler. and i didn't want to read it if it was a spoiler, so i made my sister go read it for me. she said it was a huge spoiler, so i didn't read it. but she did read me some parts of it.
anyway, if you do go read it, i'm like 95% sure i know who it is.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!
^that was me crying.
mood: OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!
OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm like so freaking out right now!!!
okay.
breathe.
whoo.
so i have the houseisright.com RSS feed on my homepage, and today i saw something on there that i wish i hadn't seen. and now i'm absolutely gonna CRY!! only i'm not joking. i'm like seriously tearing up. go read if you want, but be warned, it's a serious spoiler. i don't read spoilers, but the title was a spoiler. and i didn't want to read it if it was a spoiler, so i made my sister go read it for me. she said it was a huge spoiler, so i didn't read it. but she did read me some parts of it.
anyway, if you do go read it, i'm like 95% sure i know who it is.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!
^that was me crying.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
HOLY COW!!!
currently reading: confessions of a shopaholic
current mood: astonished, and a little freaked out.
ok. go here and just look around for a minute.
are you freaking out? that totally freaked me out.
first off the prices. HOLY COW. of course, the thing i liked most was the black eyelet gown. seven THOUSAND, three hundred ninety five dollars. what the heck am i messing around with music for? i should be a designer!!
secondly, the models! they all look exactly the same! but look closely - they're not all one person!! there one brunette, and two or three different blondes. i honestly can't tell. they all look like wax, and they all look like corpses! i mean look at them: no emotion in the eye, no color in the cheek. it's freaky!!!
ok, sorry. end rant.
anyway, i've been meaning to update and several things have been floating around in my head today, but this was the first one that really seemed postworthy. or, rather, really seemed postworthy and i was around my computer while i remembered it. i've forgotten all my other topics. oh well. either they weren't that important in the first place or you'll hear about them later. either way, ttfn.
love and hugs,
katrina
current mood: astonished, and a little freaked out.
ok. go here and just look around for a minute.
are you freaking out? that totally freaked me out.
first off the prices. HOLY COW. of course, the thing i liked most was the black eyelet gown. seven THOUSAND, three hundred ninety five dollars. what the heck am i messing around with music for? i should be a designer!!
secondly, the models! they all look exactly the same! but look closely - they're not all one person!! there one brunette, and two or three different blondes. i honestly can't tell. they all look like wax, and they all look like corpses! i mean look at them: no emotion in the eye, no color in the cheek. it's freaky!!!
ok, sorry. end rant.
anyway, i've been meaning to update and several things have been floating around in my head today, but this was the first one that really seemed postworthy. or, rather, really seemed postworthy and i was around my computer while i remembered it. i've forgotten all my other topics. oh well. either they weren't that important in the first place or you'll hear about them later. either way, ttfn.
love and hugs,
katrina
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
namesake.
current mood: uber chill.
currently listening to: "teardrop" by massive attack. aka the House, M.D. theme.
soooooo... i really have nothing to post about, but it's 5:40, i can't sleep, and i haven't posted in... some time (idk how long).
my computer's doing this weird thing where it randomly picks letters to not interpret. like i know i'm hitting the keys, but the letters aren't showing up. whatever.
oh so Hugh Laurie won a SAG award last night. his second, i believe, but don't quote me on that. congrats, Mr. Laurie! the cast of House was nominated, but lost to some other cast which, i'm sure, could never compete. [my tv obsession's cast can beat up your tv obsession's cast! and out-look 'em to boot. i'm sure there has never been a tv cast so full of such stunningly beautiful people, and there probably won't ever be again.]
i have to pee.
OOH, that reminds me, last night's episode of House was really good. it was so involved, it definitely could have been two hours, if the writers had expanded on any of the story lines. i was very sad, though, that all the romantic spark between house and cuddy and house and cameron seemed to be missing. i mean, i know none of them have ever been a "thing", but there's always been something between those two pairs. there was sexual banter between house and cameron, and in the last scene, cameron all but confessed that she was still in love with house [come on, you know it's true], but when hugh and jen were on screen... something that used to be there wasn't. idk, maybe i'm imagining it. maybe i'm reading too much into it. maybe i'm not reading enough. idk. there were some sweet scenes between house and cuddy, though. if those two are gonna get together, i hope they do it already. there's gonna be a lot of seriously pissed off people [including me] if the writers pull a JAG and wait until the SERIES finale to get them together when they've so clearly felt something for each other and even talked about it. [i still don't buy that Mac admitted that she was in love with Harm in season six, and they didn't get together for another 4 years. i mean, come on.]
i'm hot. like temperature-wise. idk, though, i straightened my hair yesterday, and it's pretty darn cute. i even went out into public with no make-up on! that's like huge for me. but yeah, it's really that hot.
speaking of hot, it was hot out today!! i walked outstide to get something, expecting it to be cold like it has been for the past month, and i was like "guh-ross!!" it was like 80 degrees and muggy as all get out. then, of course, the low for this thursday is 29. yay, Texas.
sooooo... i think that's about all i have for now.
love & hugs,
Katrina
currently listening to: "teardrop" by massive attack. aka the House, M.D. theme.
soooooo... i really have nothing to post about, but it's 5:40, i can't sleep, and i haven't posted in... some time (idk how long).
my computer's doing this weird thing where it randomly picks letters to not interpret. like i know i'm hitting the keys, but the letters aren't showing up. whatever.
oh so Hugh Laurie won a SAG award last night. his second, i believe, but don't quote me on that. congrats, Mr. Laurie! the cast of House was nominated, but lost to some other cast which, i'm sure, could never compete. [my tv obsession's cast can beat up your tv obsession's cast! and out-look 'em to boot. i'm sure there has never been a tv cast so full of such stunningly beautiful people, and there probably won't ever be again.]
i have to pee.
OOH, that reminds me, last night's episode of House was really good. it was so involved, it definitely could have been two hours, if the writers had expanded on any of the story lines. i was very sad, though, that all the romantic spark between house and cuddy and house and cameron seemed to be missing. i mean, i know none of them have ever been a "thing", but there's always been something between those two pairs. there was sexual banter between house and cameron, and in the last scene, cameron all but confessed that she was still in love with house [come on, you know it's true], but when hugh and jen were on screen... something that used to be there wasn't. idk, maybe i'm imagining it. maybe i'm reading too much into it. maybe i'm not reading enough. idk. there were some sweet scenes between house and cuddy, though. if those two are gonna get together, i hope they do it already. there's gonna be a lot of seriously pissed off people [including me] if the writers pull a JAG and wait until the SERIES finale to get them together when they've so clearly felt something for each other and even talked about it. [i still don't buy that Mac admitted that she was in love with Harm in season six, and they didn't get together for another 4 years. i mean, come on.]
i'm hot. like temperature-wise. idk, though, i straightened my hair yesterday, and it's pretty darn cute. i even went out into public with no make-up on! that's like huge for me. but yeah, it's really that hot.
speaking of hot, it was hot out today!! i walked outstide to get something, expecting it to be cold like it has been for the past month, and i was like "guh-ross!!" it was like 80 degrees and muggy as all get out. then, of course, the low for this thursday is 29. yay, Texas.
sooooo... i think that's about all i have for now.
love & hugs,
Katrina
Thursday, January 15, 2009
something deeper.
Audience of One by Big Daddy Weave
I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am
And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
When all that I have
Is this life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility
And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
as a Christian, this song is so easy to hear and identify with. you hear it and go, "yeah, what a great message - performing for God alone, not caring what others think". as an artist, musician, and performer, this song is kind of really hard to think about. like the ideal of living only for God and caring only what He thinks is kool and all, but performing an audience of ONE? that's like... scary. think "career suicide". but i have to force myself to realize that He really is all that matters. that He is the only thing that will last. that worldly fame will fade and die, but His knowledge of me will last an ETERNITY. (also a scary topic, but one for another day.)
on another note: what powerful lyrics!
"seeking your face/and not only your hand" is holding my attention for some reason, though i don't fully understand it.
"i find You embracing me/just as i am". it constantly amazes me that God knows absolutely EVERYTHING about us, but loves us any way. and what's more, loves us more than we could ever imagine. He takes us just as we are. rather, he constantly takes us back just as we are.
"in my praises make your home". a house is temporary. a home is forever. our praises to Him should be constant and forever.
"what song could i sing/that would move the heart of Royalty". as a singer i'm constantly thinking about how well songs fit my voice or what song i would perform if i were performing at this or that venue. i never stop to think, though, that God created music. He knows all the chords, He's heard all my bad notes. i could sing better that i've ever sung, i could even be regaled as the best singer of all time. but if it's not in His name, it is worth nothing.
"all that i have/is the life that You’ve given me/so Lord let me live for You/my song with humility". it's so weird to think that the most precious thing i have - my very life - was never mine to begin with. i don't own myself, and to be honest, it's probably a good thing. one, i could never pay the price to get into Heaven. two, it forces me to be accountable. to realize that, though, i have to be humble. i have to live with humility. everything i do should be overshadowed by the glory of God.
"and Lord as the love song/of my life is played". to think the Creator of the universe wrote my life story to be a love song... it brings tears to my eyes.
i hope this song speaks to you. if it doesn't, go find one that does. write about it. and let me know so i can peek into your brain.
I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am
And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
When all that I have
Is this life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility
And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord
as a Christian, this song is so easy to hear and identify with. you hear it and go, "yeah, what a great message - performing for God alone, not caring what others think". as an artist, musician, and performer, this song is kind of really hard to think about. like the ideal of living only for God and caring only what He thinks is kool and all, but performing an audience of ONE? that's like... scary. think "career suicide". but i have to force myself to realize that He really is all that matters. that He is the only thing that will last. that worldly fame will fade and die, but His knowledge of me will last an ETERNITY. (also a scary topic, but one for another day.)
on another note: what powerful lyrics!
"seeking your face/and not only your hand" is holding my attention for some reason, though i don't fully understand it.
"i find You embracing me/just as i am". it constantly amazes me that God knows absolutely EVERYTHING about us, but loves us any way. and what's more, loves us more than we could ever imagine. He takes us just as we are. rather, he constantly takes us back just as we are.
"in my praises make your home". a house is temporary. a home is forever. our praises to Him should be constant and forever.
"what song could i sing/that would move the heart of Royalty". as a singer i'm constantly thinking about how well songs fit my voice or what song i would perform if i were performing at this or that venue. i never stop to think, though, that God created music. He knows all the chords, He's heard all my bad notes. i could sing better that i've ever sung, i could even be regaled as the best singer of all time. but if it's not in His name, it is worth nothing.
"all that i have/is the life that You’ve given me/so Lord let me live for You/my song with humility". it's so weird to think that the most precious thing i have - my very life - was never mine to begin with. i don't own myself, and to be honest, it's probably a good thing. one, i could never pay the price to get into Heaven. two, it forces me to be accountable. to realize that, though, i have to be humble. i have to live with humility. everything i do should be overshadowed by the glory of God.
"and Lord as the love song/of my life is played". to think the Creator of the universe wrote my life story to be a love song... it brings tears to my eyes.
i hope this song speaks to you. if it doesn't, go find one that does. write about it. and let me know so i can peek into your brain.
Monday, January 12, 2009
for real this time.
current mood: practically asleep
currently watching: E!'s fashion police
the golden globes were AMAZING. they're always my favorite awards show. every one's so relaxed and chill. my current obsession, Olivia Wilde, was nominated by the fashion police for best dressed of the night [idk who won, i watched the first 20 minutes then came to bed b/c i was falling asleep], and she so totally deserved it. she looked beautiful. she absolutely took my breath away. see photos here and read my comment down below.
any way, more to come about the golden globes and fashion hits and misses tomorrow. like i said, i'm basically asleep right now.
oh, side note, i am now officially in love with Kate Winslet. again, more to come on that tomorrow.
love and hugs,
katrina
currently watching: E!'s fashion police
the golden globes were AMAZING. they're always my favorite awards show. every one's so relaxed and chill. my current obsession, Olivia Wilde, was nominated by the fashion police for best dressed of the night [idk who won, i watched the first 20 minutes then came to bed b/c i was falling asleep], and she so totally deserved it. she looked beautiful. she absolutely took my breath away. see photos here and read my comment down below.
any way, more to come about the golden globes and fashion hits and misses tomorrow. like i said, i'm basically asleep right now.
oh, side note, i am now officially in love with Kate Winslet. again, more to come on that tomorrow.
love and hugs,
katrina
Sunday, January 11, 2009
weird day.
current mood: fragile.
currently listening to: "you raise me up" by selah
i need a hug.
topics to be discussed tomorrow: the west wing and the golden globes.
currently listening to: "you raise me up" by selah
i need a hug.
topics to be discussed tomorrow: the west wing and the golden globes.
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