girl language

it occurs to me that guys think girls are complicated. usually, we're telling you exactly what we want, you just don't always understand it. so here's a little guide to what we say or do, and what that means.

when i walk away, i want you to follow me.
when i shut you out, i want you to fight for me.
when you know something's wrong, but i say it's "fine", i want you to ask me again.
when i'm upset and i cross my arms, i want you to hug me.
when i'm angry and i cross my arms, fix whatever you did wrong real quick.
when i cry, i want you to hug me. you don't have to say anything, just hug me.
when i say my neck hurts, i want you to rub it.
when i say i'm cold, i want you to give me your jacket or put your arm around me.
when i say i don't want to talk about it, i don't want to talk about it (but ask me again anyway, just to be sure).
when i make an effort (and ESPECIALLY if i ask you about it), i want you to say something, and be enthusiastic about it.
when you think something good about me, say it.
when i hang out with you and your friends and they start razzing on me, i want you to stand up for me.
when i swoon over that celebrity, don't take it personally, he'll never be as handsome as you, i promise.
when i go on about how beautiful that actress is, it's not always because i'm after a compliment (but it's still nice to hear).
when i self-depricate, the best thing to do is make a joke about it.
when i say i need chocolate, it's as real a need as water. give me chocolate.
when i say something's gross (like your farts), it's gross. and no, i'm not going to learn to love it.
when i cry at a sad/happy/romantic/completelyrandom movie, it's because i need to cry. no, i'm not weird.
when i obsess over things, it'll pass eventually. please be patient, and DON'T tell me to calm down or get over it. (you will be slapped.)
when i explain the drama i'm going through with my friends, i want you to be on my side. period.
and when i tell you i love you, i mean it.

question and answer

SocialInterview.com asked me:
"If you knew today was your last day on Earth, how would you spend it and why?"
I answered:
"i'd do all the things i'm scared to do now. i'd take pictures of myself. i'd go to the beach in a bikini. i'd stand up in the traditional service of my church and sing what i want. i'd go sky diving. i'd swim in a lake. i'd kiss the guy i like. i'd make up with some old friends and tell some old enemies exactly when i forgave them. i'd tell the truth. i'd stand up and say, 'this is what i believe, and i don't care if that offends you'. i'd go up to that random girl i see in the mall and tell her i think she's gorgeous. i'd eat what i want. i'd talk to the people i never thought i was good enough to talk to. i'd tell the people i miss that i miss them. i'd call my family down the street and in Estonia and everywhere in between. i'd wear high heels with short shorts. i'd dance to whatever music i want. i'd wear red lipstick and too much eye liner. i'd repay all my debts. i'd tell some of my secrets. and mostly, i would proclaim the name of Jesus every chance i got."

Make Some Noise by Hannah Montana

It's easy to feel like you're all alone
To feel like nobody knows
The great that you are
The good that's inside you
Is trying so hard to break through

Maybe it's your time to lift off and fly
You won't know if you never try
I will be there with you all of the way
You'll be fine

Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong with just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing hey, hey
Make some noise hey, hey yeah

You want to be known
You want to be heard
And know you are beautiful
You have so much to give
Some change you wanna live
So shout it out and let it show

You have a diamond inside of your heart
A light that shines bright as the stars
Don't be afraid to be all that you are
You'll be fine

Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong with just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing hey, hey
Make some noise hey, hey yeah

You can't just sit back and watch the world change
It matters what you've got to say
There's no one else who can stand in your place
So come on, it's never too late

Maybe it's your time to lift off and fly
You won't know if you never try

Don't let anyone tell you
That you're not strong enough
Don't give up
There's nothing wrong with just being yourself
That's more than enough
So come on and raise your voice
Speak your mind and make some noise
And sing hey, hey
Make some noise hey, hey yeah

Wait and See by Brandon Heath

the theme song of my life:

I was born in Tennessee
Late July humidity
Doctor said I was lucky to be alive
I’ve been trouble since the day that I got here
Trouble till the day that I disappear
That’ll be the day that I finally get it right

There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet

I never really was that good in school
I talked too much, broke the rules
Teacher thought I was hopeless fool alright
I don’t know how but I made it through
It’s one of those things that you’ve gotta do
But I always had a knack for telling the truth

There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet

Still wondering why I’m here
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh, He’s up to something
And the farther on I go
I’ve seen enough to know
That I’m, not here for nothing
He’s up to something
So now’s my time to be a man
Follow my heart as far as I can
No telling where I’m ending up tonight
I never slow down or so it seems
But singing my heart it’s one of my dreams
All I gotta do is hold on tight

There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet

difference

i'm just a different kind of person. i'm not made like every one else.
i'll tell you i'm a city chick, but there's nothing i love more than sitting in a forest, listening to a waterfall.
i'd rather lay around my house in my best dress and go out in public in my most comfortable sweat pants.
i love shoes, but i hate wearing them.
i love the night because of its darkness, but i never sleep well at night.
i'll take candles and sunlight over electric lights any day, and a candle's not a candle without fire.
i'm all for eating healthfully and organically, as long as i can still have french fries & ketchup now and then.
i have a thing for coffee drinks, but i hate coffee, and i always prefer green tea.
i always feel fat while i'm working out, and skinny after i take a shower after working out.
home cooking is the best... except when it's not.
i enjoy music of ALL kinds... except for the music i don't enjoy.
i identify with modern, but love the classics too (in regards to everything).
i don't want a husband and i don't want kids, but i want to be married and have a family.
i hate being single, but i also hate commitment.
i want to get as far away as fast as possible, but i never, ever want to leave my family.
i hate it where i live, but i really can't imagine calling any other place home.
i sleep best during the day and do my deepest thinking when i'm tired.
i write songs, poems, and stories, and while i want to share them all with every one, i also know that by literary standards, they all suck.
i call myself an artist, but there's a lot of art that i either don't get, or just don't like or care about.
i have discovered that every place has good and bad things about it, now i'm just looking for the place whose good draws me in and whose bad i can ignore.
i don't want to go to college, but i refuse to let myself be uneducated.
there's nothing better than milk chocolate... unless you add caramel.
i am a true southern girl... who was made to live in the north.
i love exercising, but i hate working out.
i want to love and be loved, but i don't want to hurt or be hurt.
i'd rather stay up all night by myself than stay up all day with other people, but i miss my family when i do.

i'm just different from the world around me and the people i know. i'm not a conformist. some people say that's bad. i say that's just the way i was made, and i have no desire to change that.

rain

i lay here with my window open, listening to the sounds of the rain.
i stare out the windows and see the trees standing in their shower, being washed clean for a new day.
i feel the breeze as it flows through my room.
the car noises pass and fade, eventually leaving altogether.
but the rain stays.

the beautiful rain whose sounds lull me,
whose feel excites me,
whose smell fills me with hope,
whose sight sooths my soul.

the rain washes my spirit, preparing me for a new day.
it cools the air and brings with it excitement for the seasons to come.
the rain envelops everything it touches.

i only wish i could stand in the rain every day, letting it drench me until i am clean once more.

i'm a great casting director!

In the movie of your life, who would play...

...You?
Sara Rue
...a curvy redhead with a head for comedy and a heart for love.

...Your love interest?
Brad Pitt
...just the type of guy i go for: too perfect to be obtainable. with, of course, the Abercrombie-model good looks.

...Your best friend?
Jennifer Garner
...so loving and smart, she knows what to say and how to cheer me up when Bradley there ends up falling for my sister (played brilliantly by Brigid Brannaugh) instead of me.

...Your mother?
Allison Janney
...GORGEOUS, talented, funny, uber smart... just like my real mother!

...Your worst enemy?
Reese Witherspoon
...fun, supportive, the perfect friend... until she stabs you in the back. Reese would be perfect for this role. sweet to your face and venomous behind your back.

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i picked these actors for these roles based on the people in my life and the roles in which i have seen these actors. i think they're all great actors and, from what little of them i know, good people.