It's a weird feeling when a family member dies. It's not just grief, it's a sadness that consumes every cell in your body and you can feel it in your fingertips and on the soles of your feet.
When the person has been sick for a while there's always a small sense of relief. But mostly there's a shock at the knowledge that the world can still exist without that person in it. From however far away you are, you seem to be able to feel the loss of their soul. The world is forever changed by them no longer being in it.